My Healing Journey……Author MaLady Mersadedeez

My Twin Flame kept diamonds on my hands.He kept diamonds in my ear. He kept my hair done without me asking for him to do so. He took us out on dinner dates. He opened my car door Everytime I got in and out of the car. He opened doors for me in public. He didn’t let me touch doors to open them,he said that was a woman being a thug. (LoL) He held my hand in public. He was quite the gentleman.
My Twin Flame never let anything get disconnected in our home. He paid every bill on time, he didn’t play that. He paid all of the bills in our first home we got together and lived in together. Who knew that it would be our last home together and that we would never see each other again. Our “Twin Flame journey ended so soon but he still sends me signs from heaven to tell me he will always love me and that he will never forget me. That he misses me.All I had to do was cook 7 days a week, Keep the house clean and do his laundry. I could have worked but he didn’t want me to. He was a real man,the type like the Church of GOD in Christ (COGIC) denomination I come from and that I am apart of.Where they teach you that a man is the head of the house and provides, while the woman takes care of her man and takes care of everything that has to be done at home. My Virgo Twin Flame liked when I waited on him head to foot after he got off of work. I always had his dinner hot n ready when he got off of work. I always fix his plate of food and served it to him as the man of the house. He never fixed his own plate. Except for when my twin flame was cooking he fix my plate of food and his plate of food. I was never in the kitchen by myself though because he was always in there helping me cook. We cooked together. We grocery shop together. We went out on dates on Saturdays. He was real laid back ,down to earth,but yet old fashioned. He set the order in our home when he was alive.He taught me how to be independent. He told me before he died,To never depend on anyone for anything. My Twin Flame was a Virgo Man with a Taurus moon. He was an ole Skool gangster. He was a King Pen from back in the day. He was definitely “Da Mafia”.He was not the type to play with but he was humble. Wealthy,lawd that man had the money. He was wealthyyyyy! My Twin Flame lived a double life that no one knew about but I knew about, because he told me,before he died, about his double life. He was of the Freemasons lineage. But,He was not good at all with women.As a matter of a fact he was more into men than women. He treated men with more respect than he gave women. He was bi-sexual.That’s how we manage to balance our life together for a short period We didn’t hide that from each other.I met My Virgo Twin Flame through my karmic family. He was toxic as hell, but I still loved him in spite of how toxic and dark he was. I was the light twin. He was the dark twin. He was hilarious . He kept me laughing at his jokes.He was so jealous, that I couldn’t do anything. Nobody better not try to talk to me, oh yo tail was getting cussed out by him.For the life of me I couldn’t understand why, but no one wanted to see me (November Sagittarius) and my Virgo twin flame together. Everyone was jealous and doing some dark ritual from left to right to try to keep us apart.These evil women did not want us together as twin flames, but we stayed together until he died in May 2024. In the end, I really believe that my Twin Flame pissed off a karmic evil woman that didn’t want us to be together, so she or they decided to end his life. It just all happened too fast, one minute he was here…the next he was gone. Such a sad,hurtful,painful situation back during that time.But through it all I healed. I healed myself. I am not hurting for my Twin Flame. I am not sad. I am at peace.

I haven’t been with another man since my Twin Flame died. I haven’t dated anyone yet physically since my Twin Flame died. I’m not having sex. The last time I had sex was in March of 2024 when my Twin Flame was alive,before he died in May of 2024.

I healed from all of the pain people caused me and my Twin Flame when it seemed impossible. I made it through. I did all by myself on my healing journey.

I am proud of myself because I healed from all of this. The Sun is shining bright on me. The Sun is literally shining on me bright through my window right now. I am thankful for where I live now. I am thankful for the place I can finally call home. I have been working on putting my life back together. Getting a lot of things straightened out in my life. I lost everything before my twin flame died and after he died. I lost my car, my enemies put so much witchcraft on my car that my transmission blew up in it.So, I walk when I need to go somewhere or catch a cab. I have become solely independent and no one is taking care of me now,but me. It feels so good. I am just ready for a little more to come to me but I know I have to be patient. The lesson I learned is to love me first and to be independent on me but never no one else ever again. Welcome Home To Me! Tears of Joy I cry 😭 I made it! Rainbows are in the sky! Happy Ascension Day! Happy Ascended Masters Day!👏🏽🎉🙌🏽

I haven’t been with another man since my Twin Flame died. I haven’t dated anyone yet physically since my Twin Flame died. I’m not sexually active.